conform to the ideas that others have about me and so I am afraid and I have been hiding from them lest they should discover my secret and declare me an outcast. I am in a terrible state of "nerves" because I only feel like they think I should part of the time and then I enjoy being as they are. At other times I feel differently and I cannot share this with them for they would not understand."
"I see," " said the Administrator. "It appears that you do not have the courage of your convictions nor the strength to support them. Perhaps you need some deeper understanding of yourself and of the rest of the world so as to see yourself in a proper light. We will see what we can do about that after I hear from the rest," and he turned to SHAME.
"And what have you to say for yourself, SHAME?"
"Oh, Sir," replied SHAME, "I have been sitting off by my- self under the trees at the edge of the meadow watching all the other ASPECTS of LIFE playing and enjoying themselves. I have done this because I have not felt good enough to be a part of them. I have had ideas, thoughts, desires that my experience with the rest of the ASPECTS of LIFE tells me I should not have had. These feelings are different from the prescribed ideas, thoughts, and desires as set down in the GREAT BOOK of the ORDER of THINGS. I feel very badly that these things keep com- ing to my mind. It makes me feel as though I were a traitor to myself. I was brought up like all the other ASPECTS to have great regard and respect for the BOOK of the ORDER of THINGS and for you, Sir, its Administrator. When I find these subver- sive things creeping into my mind I do not feel good enough to take part in and enjoy the freedom and happiness of the other ASPECTS, so I sit off to one side and let them have their fun and freedom uncontaminated by such as I."
"My child," said the Administrator, "you have many things to learn about me, about the GREAT BOOK of the ORDER of THINGS and about your fellow ASPECTS. Things are not as bad
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